I thank God and the Higher Powers for this blessing. Being a woman able to give life to a baby is such a miracle and a humbling experience. I know my husband has gone through his own transformation being Jellybean's father, but sometimes I wish he could feel the things I feel.
That said, I just want to write this post to remind myself of the joys and challenges of pregnancy the second time around.
I think part of the challenges of being a pregnant woman is that most people will say we're so lucky to be able to be pregnant as opposed to having fertility issues. For the most part I feel lucky and blessed. But I think it creates a societal pressure to feel happy, grateful, and positive 100% of the time. Truthfully I feel great about being preggers 70% of the time. I feel anxious 25% of the time for Jellybean and the big changes that are coming her way, how she's too young to know what exactly those changes are, and how to make this transition as seamless as possible for her. I spend the other 5% of the time struggling with all the aches and pain of being pregnant.
I'm in my 33rd week this week and Baby #2 is the size of a honeydew melon. I'm getting menstrual-like cramps in conjunction with Braxton-Hicks contractions, about 55%-45% relatively speaking, and this makes me worried. I always think that it's related to preterm labor because I had menstrual-like cramps prior to going into labor with Jellybean. I hope I'm just worrying over nothing and that Baby #2 can stay in until full term!
As for the typical Honey Do list, I've thrown that out for a Honey Do Prepare for Plan A and Plan B list.
I go into labor during daytime. We'll call our awesome nanny to watch over Jellybean so that my hubby and I can head over to the hospital.
I go into labor during the night or when our awesome nanny won't be available. We'll have to take Jellybean with us to the hospital and have our awesome nanny meet us at the hospital as soon as she can.
Six more weeks to go! Time to me feels like it's speeding up and slowing down. I can't believe that we're going to have a baby in 6 short weeks! I can't believe it's another 6 long weeks to become a family of 4 plus 4 cats!